If I lost you.
Am I losing you? A small part of me feels like your slipping through the tips of my fingers, losing the warmth my touch used to give you. But on the other hand… i feel us growing, becoming more captivated in our love. If i’m losing you, i’m going to hold on for as long as my heart will allow - and will do all possible things to change your mind, aside from begging at your knees. I can not force someone to love me, but i can offer all i am to the person i love, being you. I feel as if you all giving up on us, on me mostly… that you’ve become bored with the same person. It stings, because of all the things everyone said you were and things you’d do… that i pushed aside to be yours. I can’t deny the thought of another has ever crossed my thoughts, but i would be lying if i said your charm and affection didn’t shove those aweful thoughts right out from where they entered. I wish I could do that for you. Remind you of what you have… without sounding like a mental case. Is my love for you too strong? Have I tried to hard? Have I not tried hard enough? I would do anything for you, and i mean just about ANYTHING… I am willing to dedicated any amount of time to show you that i’m worth sticking around for….
please stay a while longer, don’t give up on my just yet… not everybody breaks up after graduation…
we didn’t.
| — | reality |
Wordpress
I refuse to re-make or re-open my wordpress because that word make me a hypocrite.
But i dont like the feeling of not being able to get out whats hurting my on the inside, anywhere.
The fact that nowhere is safe. is a fucking joke. But what the fuck do I do about that?
Nothing,. like a always do. I sit here and let the things that SHOULD be said out loud, bottle up and stab my insides, so at least only ONE person is getting hurt. Because why? Because I, personally, am a great fucking person, and god claps for me ALL THE FUCKING TIME. SO THE NEXT FUCKING PERSON TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I DONT DESERVE 10 GOLDEN TICKETS TO HEAVEN AND 10 MORE AWARDS FOR BEING WHO I AM IS GOING TO….. have no consequence. Because that’s who I am.
fucking #irriated# #shouldn’t NOT-feel-safe in my OWN FUCKING HOME
Nancy.
I feel like thats who i need to be with right now.
Because i am aloud to yell and cuss and vent in her face
and she legally has to allow to me express the way i want to.
I feel angry and I can’t handle it. I haven’t had this kind of feeling inside of me in a long time.
I feel like everything I want and know is a complete lie, i feel trapped.
That’s it… i feel trapped.
The 29th can’t come any sooner….
current favorite.
after prommmm /////////////////////////////////////3
battling a cat, nbd.
MY HAIR IS SO PRETTY >_>
I miss prom…
